Tuesday, October 14, 2008

one year anniversary

On Sunday, the 12th we celebrated our one year anniversary of living in Wisconsin. Last year when we moved here it felt so rushed and hurried, that I wasn't able to take it all in. I had just literally given up possession of my home-we sold it, in one day, praise God! But I felt like I was handing all of my hard work over to people who didn't know and understand what that house meant to us. So for all of you people who are saying "you can't take it with you"...blah, blah! I know a house is a possession, but right now, for me it was my pride and joy. Eric and I saved up all of our money, bought this house that needed a ton of work and some TLC, and we made it to be our own. We picked everything out for it, and we did all of the work, with help from our families. But it truly was ours. I love that house and I miss it daily. I miss my hardwood floors, and my paint colors, and having a yard, and waving to the neighbors. I miss pulling in the garage and knowing I am home, and just miss knowing that it was all mine. So when we sold it and handed over the keys, I wasn't fully prepared to grieve for this house. I kept telling myself, and still tell myself, it's a house, we'll have another one. Which I know we will, but I will always love that house on Jason Court.

The move here physically went smoothly. All of our stuff made it, with a few dents and scratches, and most importantly-the cat survived the car ride. Eric didn't officially start until Nov. 1, and we moved here Oct. 12. Trust me, with a 2 month old baby, I was thankful for the help, but I was also counting the days down until he started work again! We were able to feel out the area, and get to know the staff, our neighbors, and what it meant to start over again.

Then when Eric started working and I was home with Molly all day, I began to miss Cincinnati and all of the familiar things there. I knew more people, I knew how to get around, and I felt needed there. Sure Molly needed me, and Eric to a point, but I really felt like the kids needed me, or other people counted on me for things. Here wasn't like that, at all. In Cincy, Eric and I were a team when it came to ministry, we had each other. And when things felt like they couldn't get any worse, they did, but we had each other to turn to. So why was I grieving a place I couldn't wait to get away from. I wanted to run and keep on running.

To this day I miss Cincy, the people, our friends, Carters :), Skyline, and all those great Queen City staples. I miss being needed again by the church. I am needed every other month here for the 4/5's class, but really, I just show up the other weeks.

God is faithful, and we have the best opportunities here that we wouldn't have had anywhere else. God's promises are new every morning, and he has/is blessing us with many people to serve here. So needless to say, I love Wisconsin, but I will always love Cincinnati too. It was our first ministry, first house, first baby, and a lot other firsts. Thanks Cincy for a great ride, and now Hello Wisconsin for another one!

Thursday, October 9, 2008

fall beauty

so for some reason i love fall. i love the weather, and the colors. you can take one look at my house and know i love fall colors. everything i have is practically red, orange, green, tan, brown, blue, etc. i am attracted to those colors in stores, and anywhere else you see them. this is my second fall in wisconsin. last year we moved here i guess in the middle of fall, but the second weekend we were here it snowed. and it didn't stop till april. so now snow yet, frost, but no snow. so i guess this is the first fall i have actually been able to enjoy in wisconsin. let me tell you, it's beautiful. probably where you are at is beautiful too, but here, i just want to get out of the car at every corner and take a picture. i am constantly telling eric, "look at those leaves...what a beautiful setting for a picture." which by now he rolls his eyes, and smiles a little. but seriously it's gorgeous here.

i think since having molly i have become more appreciative of the little things too. like color changing leaves. i try not to take life for granted, and i really do try and take it all in. since moving here i have seen awesome sunsets and wonderful rainbows. eric and i went to hawaii on vacation and saw rainbows there, and trust me they were beautiful too. but in hawaii you know you are going to see rainbows, in wisconsin, it's actually surprising to me still. i have seen 2 complete rainbows here, like start to finish. which i think is incredible. to me the rainbow still means the same thing it did for noah. god has not forgotten me, and he will never forget me. although last year at this time i had my house packed on a moving truck and we all had to live 4 days without our stuff, we slept on the floor of our house with a 2 month old baby, and lived out of a cooler, god never forgot us. eric and i still talk about those 4 days and what fun we had in our empty house and how we will never forget those simple days. then moving here, knowing not even one soul, and making it through. we will be here a year on the 12th, and i still am excited to get up and see what the day brings. i am still excited to go to the ridge on sundays and we see what cover tune the band is going to sing, and i am still excited because i can see god at work daily.

the leaves may change color, and look beautiful for a time, and rainbows may appear once in a great while, or when you need one, but god's promises and faithfulness will last forever. please know he has not forgotten about you. he knows what you need, and when you need it.

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

the hummingbirds

i have some flowers in window boxes, but they are on my railing on my balcony, so flowers in railing boxes...and everyday these two hummingbirds come and fly around the flowers looking for food. and everyday they are disappointed, because my flowers aren't giving them what they want. but sure enough, the next morning, they are back again. i don't know the intelligence level of hummingbirds, or anything like that. so i am not sure if they are smart, dumb, or average, and how much they really remember.

one day when i was trying to take a picture of them, i got to thinking, these hummingbirds are like people. people are attracted to other people, or things that aren't really going to give them what they need, like the "flowers." although the "flowers" are pretty, they aren't what we need, and their beauty is only on the outside, because they have no nutrition inside them. but we keep going back to the "flowers" daily, or weekly, looking for something, or wanting something from them. when really, god is waiting for us, to give us what we need.

my flowers now are slowly dying. it's getting colder outside, and the frost is soon to come. the hummingbirds don't come around so much anymore. maybe they found what they were looking for.

what are we looking for? acceptance, love, forgiveness, friendship, the list goes on. just remember that whatever you are looking for, god is truly the answer. he can fill you up, that you will never be empty again.