Thursday, July 2, 2009

Which way is up?

This is how I feel right now, which direction is up, where am I going, what meds need to be given now, etc, etc. Well, my step-dad, Phil, who you all have been wonderful to pray for is home now. He was released early this afternoon, hallelujah! Now we are home, relaxing, and trying to let reality set in.

A brain tumor?! Holy mother! Who has those? Well, Phil does. I got this awful phone call from him on Tuesday saying he had a brain tumor and was being rushed into the operating room to have it removed. Okay, so how do you react? I called Eric and told him I had to fly to New York to be there, and then I called my MIL and freaked out. I asked her to come and watch Molly for us, and she agreed. Eric ended up calling off the panic patrol and he is watching Molly, thankfully his job is flexible. I got on the first flight out from Milwaukee. Once I got to my layover, my mom called and said they could not operate because his brain is so swollen, he would have never made it through surgery. Well I came too far to turn back now. I got here around 11pm. My mom picked me up and when she saw me, she broke down. Once she calmed down, and we talked, we came home. We ate scrambled eggs and toast. This is my Mom's down home cooking. For those of you who know her, you are probably laughing now.

The next morning we went to the hospital. We stayed there all day Wednesday and just waited. He looks fine, it's not like he is out of it, or incoherent or anything. Just chillin' in the bed. So now we are home. Making many phone calls, cancelling appointments, and trying to survive in this new normal.

So here is the tricky part. My step-dad is more then likely, like there is a 99% chance that he will have his brain surgery on the same day my brother died of a brain injury. Talk about emotions just rushing back at you. The situations are totally different, and it will be 11 years this month, but still. I know God won't give you more then you can handle, but really, the same day? Holy mother!

I am flying back home on Saturday. I am missing my Molly, and my hubby so much! Eric is doing a great job with her, other then he had to take her to the ER last night because her elbow came out of socket. He said it was not a big deal, they just popped it back in. My poor girl! Then I will be back here for the surgery. Leaving my baby, again. But I have the most supportive, loving husband that has encouraged me this whole time. He keeps saying go, stay as long as you are needed, we are fine. And for that I thank my God.

Thank you all for your continuous support and prayers. It is greatly appreciated and most certainly needed.


Kristin said...

Oh my goodness, Kate. You are such a strong woman during all of this! I am so sorry for the loss of your brother and the timing of everything. I'm so glad that you don't have to worry about Molly though. Madison had the same thing happen to her when she was about Molly's age with her elbow.

I will be keeping you all in my prayers!

September said...

Kate!! I have been away from blog reading for a few days, and so I have missed this new turn in your life. You are in His Hands - You, Eric, Molly, Your Mom, and Phil!! You know that though,,, just keep looking up when things get a little harder to handle. I am so sorry about the timing and loss of your brother.
Your faith will be a shining testimony to many, I am sure.
Take care dear Sister!

Unknown said...

I am glad he is at home where things are much more comfortable. I can't believe he's gonna have surgery (most likely) on the same day as know. My eyes kinda bugged a little when I saw that you wrote 11 years. Are you serious!? Has it really been that long already? I can still remember when it all happened and going to his service. I hope that day is gentle on all of you and Phil's brain.

I know it's hard to leave Molly. (((hugs)))

Verna said...

God will give you Grace and you will get through this. We will continue to pray for all of you.

And by the way I like scrambled eggs and toast for dinner too. I used to put cut up hot dogs in mine too. yum, yum. So not it is not wierd. Or if it is the both of us are wierd. And we can be wierd together.


christy rose said...

Hi Kate,
I just popped over from Bethany's at Happy as can be. And oh my goodness! You are going through a time right now! I can understand all the emotions that you must be feeling. It is wonderful that you are so blessed to have an understanding husband to care for your beautiful daughter while your family needs you. God is good! I would like to come back and visit some more and stay updated on your situation. I am going to be praying for all of you. It was nice to meet you.
Christy Rose

Tina said...

Praying for you and your familY!

Veronica said...

Gosh Kate, sounds like there are a lot of things going on and lots to pray about concerning you Step-Dad. I will continue to pray for all of you guys. I couldn't believe my eyes about Molly's elbow when I read that. I have never experienced that with my kids. How scary!