Saturday, September 26, 2009

One of those weeks...

Have you ever had one of those weeks...you know where nothing really seems to go your way and you question everything that you do, and all you really want to do is cry, but you just have to hold it together.  Yea, that has been my week.  Now, I am not really an emotional person, well I am, but I am not really a crier, but when I do cry, it's only after I have held it in as long as possible and once it starts, there ain't no way to stop it.  I am not talking about oh I just watched a sad movie cry, I am talking like, down on your knees, crying your eyes balls out, until there are no more tears to cry.  Yea, I was there yesterday.

I signed Molly up for a class called Bippity, Boppity Books...I know I mentioned something about it earlier, so it started yesterday, and I was probably more excited then she was to go.  I knew she would love it, since she loves books, and snacks.  Both of those would be there!   So we got all ready and I tried to take some pics before we left...




...as you can see, she was not into the pictures, that was fine with me.  So we get to the class and it was nothing that I really expected it would be from the description in the brochure and my kid cried and screamed the entire time.  It was awful!  Now, Molly is usually the happy, go-lucky one, not the crier!  So when she was acting like that I was getting all hot, sweaty, and embarrassed.  I didn't know what to do, I looked to the other moms to find support, comfort, the "it's okay, mine acts like that too" look, and I got nothing, except judgemental stares back.  I almost lost it.  I didn't know whether to leave 5 minutes into the class or stick it out.  We tried to rotate and do the craft with the other kids but my kid is not really into sitting for long periods of time, and glueing cotton balls on paper.  She was still crying 25 minutes into it.  And I don't mean a whine cry, I mean she was all out, threw herself down on the floor, flaring around, screaming bloody murder crying.  Then the parachute came out, hallelujah, Praise Jesus!  Something active and fun for her to do.  She loved every minute of the parachute, until we had to put it away.  Then she was back to the floor kicking, screaming, crying.  To which I kept telling myself hold it together, wait till you get in the car.  I could hear the other moms talking amongst themselves.  Good grief!  Why my kid?  So then we left right when the teacher said it was time to go.  I couldn't get out to the car fast enough.  Then I just broke down.

Have you all ever felt that way?  I started questioning my parenting skills, to feeling awful that I was so mad at Molly, which really I was just mad that no one said "hey, don't worry, my kid has had a bad day too."  I say that to people all the time, and then the list went on and on...it was like I replayed everything that didn't go my way the whole week, month, year, life.  Then once the tears started flowing, there was no way of stopping them.  So I had my little pity party and then felt better, but now I am left with what to do about the class and Molly.  Eric is taking her next week, because I am watching a friends kids while she goes to a meeting.  So if she does better with him, then he is the designated class taker.  But if she cries, I think I will quit.  Moms can be really mean, and judgemental and I can't handle that.  So here's the lesson moms- don't judge!  I am saying this to myself too!  In situations like mine, totally jump in and tell other people it's okay that their kid is acting a fool, becasue yours does that too!

In other news...Molly's best friend, Oliver came over today and so did his little brother, Jude.  I watched them for a couple of hours this morning while their Mom was at a meeting.  It was definitely challenging have 3 kids 2 and under.  Plus, Ollie is potty training, so having to deal with all of that, I was a little stressed.  But it was fun and they both are good boys.  Plus, Molly has fun playing with her friend she calls Olive. 

Here are some pics from the morning...


Sorry for the pity party...which was not really a pity party, just a here's how I felt and hopefully someone can relate.  We are going to a Transformers birthday party this afternoon, so I am sure Molly will have fun.  Hope you all have a great weekend!

5 comments:

He & Me + 3 said...

Mine always act like that in Target. I get all embarrassed & get upset too. You are not alone. My goodness we as adults have bad days why are kids not allowed to? Those moms were just not nice. I hope that next week goes better and that it was just Molly having an off day and nothing more. I am not a crier either, but when the kids start acting up & I feel like I am not the one in control that can send me into a fit of tears. I have felt your pain many times.
HOpe you have fun at the party today!

Just Breathe said...

This is where you can come to and tell your trobles. We are here to listen and give out hugs.((HUGS))
Sorry the class was so difficult.

Becca said...

I am so sorry you were feeling so down! I can imagine how difficult that must have been for you. It is pretty ridiculous that the other moms acted that way. Hopefully next week will be much better for both you and Molly!

Holly said...

Gosh, you think of all people other moms would understand the situation b/c you know darn well they've been there. No kid is perfect and is going to act perfect all the time. Hopefully Molly does better next class. If not, then I wouldn't blame you for quitting. Why keep doing it if it isn't working and she isn't having fun?

Veronica said...

Kate...sorry I missed this post. You know...you touched on so many good things. It is important to remember not to be so judgemental. All of us have been there with our kiddos having fits and we can't do anything about it. I get so mad too but I have to remind myself that they are just kids. I think the other thing for you to remember too is that Molly is still young. Activities that require lots of sitting and concentrating are really meant for kids that are a little older. Plus, all of our kids respond to things in different ways.

Glad you were able to just get it all out and have your cry. I have lots of those, especially now that I'm pregnant. There's just something about getting it all out. Kind of a cleansing thing, you know?