Thursday, January 14, 2010

The story to go along with the picture...

First off, thank you all so much for the warm wishes and congratulations.  We are beyond excited and still a little shocked, in a good way.  We are due August 27, so I am 7 weeks today.  I know that according to all of the baby books you shouldn't tell people until you are out of the first trimester, or closer to 10-12 weeks.  Eric and I were totally going to do that, until this weekend.  It all started on Saturday afternoon...

I got off the phone with my dad and felt like something was not right.  I went to the bathroom and to my surprise I was bleeding.  Now I am no pregnancy expert, but I know that bleeding is not good when you are expecting.  So I called Eric right away, and then I called the doctor on call at my ob's office.  She called back and I told her what was happening, and I also told her that I was not experiencing any pain, none at all.  So she said that was a good sign, and I should put my feet up and drink lots of water.  But she also told me I could be in the early stages of miscarrying the baby. 

I did what the doctor ordered and it all seemed to get better, fast forward to Sunday morning, the bleeding came back, this time worse than before, so I called the doctor, she told me I was having a miscarriage, and quite frankly was very insensitive, and told me to face reality.  Well, I was still in no pain, so that explanation she gave me did not sit well with me.  So Eric and I left church, drove to the ER, proceeded to wait, have tests run, get an ultra sound, wait some more, go through about every emotion known to man kind in a period of 6 hours to find out that I have a 1cm subchorionic hemorrhage.  My hemorrhage is what is causing all of the bleeding.  On Sunday the ultra sound tech did picked up a nice strong heartbeat and the baby was just perfect.  I followed up with my doctor on Monday, and there was no change.  I was still bleeding, no worse, but no less, but the doctor still seemed to think that the baby is oblivious to anything going on around it. 

So as I sit here on Wednesday night, getting ready to have this automatically published on Thursday morning, we are in much different spot.  I started having really heavy bleeding today, and it's just not looking good.  I am still in no pain, none what so ever.  But according to the doctor I should not be bleeding this much.  I am going in tomorrow to have another ultra sound done to check the size of my hemorrhage and to make sure the baby is still not effected by all of this.  The doctor told me today on the phone that things were not in our favor. 

So friends, I need your prayers, and your happy thoughts.  I still have hope, I still believe that our baby is a fighter and can survive this, I believe in a God that still performs miracles.  On Saturday before everything happened I had this overwhelming urge to share our wonderful news with you all, but I stopped myself because I thought it was too soon.  But now, hopefully it's not too late. 

If you made it through this long post, thank you...I will keep you all up to date on what is going on, and thank you all again so much for the congrats and your prayers.

"Never be afraid to trust an unknown 
future to an all knowing God."
-Corrie Ten Boom

18 comments:

HappyascanB said...

Oh wow. . . . praying praying praying. God is Good ALL The time. And we believe and ask for miracles. Lifting you up!

Jenilee said...

praying for you! please update us when you can... we will be interceding for you and your sweet new baby today.

Nicole said...

Kate, your family is in my thoughts. Keep us updated. Try and take it easy, which I know is harder said than done. Take care.

Freddae' said...

Love the quote!

Christina Egner said...

Congratulations!!!!!

And I know this doesn't help any, but I had bleeding with 2 of my pregnancies. My very first child...I seriously thought I was having a miscarriage. And again with Emily. Apparently when they did the ultrasound, i had a 1cm tear on the placenta. {which ended up not being a problem ever again}

Wooohoo, how exciting for you. Nothin sweeter than the blessing of a new baby.

Kristin said...

I have been praying and will continue to pray. I know that God has plans for this sweet baby. We serve a mighty God who is capable of all things! Sending lots of hugs your way!

Stephanie said...

Oh Kate...praying for healing for your body and strength for this sweet baby to fight through this. Our God is BIGGER than any circumstances life brings our way...

MamaBear said...

I'll be praying for your family and for the medical staff!

(visiting from Stephanie's blog)

Veronica said...

Kate...I am praying. The quote you posted here says volumes. I know we serve a BIG God, one who can turn around any circumstance!

Love you!

Erin said...

I came here from Stephanie's blog, and I am praying hard.

amanda said...

praying. my heart breaks as i read this. we've had two miscarriages in the past eight months (one in may and one in august) mine in may happened with just random bleeding. and in august we found no baby. any way you look at it, it's very scary. i'm happy to say that we're expecting again, but it comes with the same fears and anxieties of not 'if' but 'when'. i'm not sure if you've ever had to suffer a devestating loss that a miscarriage is. but know that god IS in control. and that you could 'just' be bleeding. praying that THAT is the case, that it's just some bleeding. i bled at the beginning of this pregnancy and was so scared. i can imagine the feelings you are going through, but obviously don't 'know' them. but even though i'm a stranger from the same state...please know i'm here for you. if you want to vent, email, chat...whatever. i'd love to listen. i know i could've used someone who's been through 'this' before when i suffered through our miscarriages. so i want to offer 'someone'/me to you. praying you don't need me for that though!! praying. amanda

Becca said...

I am praying for that little baby Kate! I am so sorry you are having to go through this. Update us when you can!

Linda said...

Kate I am praying. I will be watching for the updates so I will know how to pray. Love, Linda

Holly said...

I have been and will be continuing to pray for you. ♥ you lots

Deborah said...

I just came across your blog. Many prayers for your little bean!

Barclay Kathryn said...

Oh man, I praying praying praying. We went through all of this in Sept. and I know how scary and helpless the waiting can be. I'm praying for peace and protection!

Kim said...

we're praying for you guys....love ya

April said...

Definitely praying for you sweetheart! My girlfriend Crystal bleed throughout her entire pregnancy, was under closer care, but had a beautiful baby girl... this may not mean you will lose your baby. Keep faith, Kate!

whatever you do - stay off the internet sites regrading bleeding during pregnancy, and in my opinion - find a more compassionate dr ;)