Thursday, January 14, 2010

Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers...but the doctor did confirm that we lost our baby.  When we did the ultra sound today they could not find a heartbeat, and the baby had moved down too low in the cervix to survive. 

I think Eric and I are both in a state of shock and numbness right now.  Honestly, I have no clue how to feel, what to feel, or how to act.  Right now I am in the process of miscarrying, which is such an odd thought to me.  So I guess I still have more to feel, and more time to process all of this.

It still makes me smile to see Molly in her Big Sister shirt, and I will miss this baby that we never got to meet, but I know we will make it through this.  God has been good to us, and I am confident that he will continue to be. 

32 comments:

Christina Egner said...

I am so sorry Kate! Love & Prayers.

Stephanie said...

Oh Kate...my heart is breaking for you. Praying for you, dear friend...

Veronica said...

I've been thinking about your all morning, Kate. My heart aches with you but I want you to know you will be in my prayers.

Because of Love said...

Oh Kate!!!
I just read both your post and I am heart broken for you! You know that I feel so much for all 3 of you!

I really wish that I could come and give you a huge hug, but I guess I can't. So please know that I am hugging you through the computer and praying for you. (And of course crying as I write this.)

I will pray for you emotionally and physically.


There are really no words of wisdom that I have to share. I will just pray for peace for you.

Love to you my friend.

Holly said...

Kate, I was hoping so much that the US would show everything was ok. I'm so sorry that it didn't. Sending you all my love and hugs.

Becca said...

OH! I am soooo sorry Kate! My heart is just torn to pieces over this! I will be praying for you and Eric.

Shaina N said...

I was brought to your site via Stephanie from the Hanes Family. I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am for your loss, and how much I understand what you're going through. My husband and I lost our first pregnancy last November. You and your entire family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Shaina
http://thedivasmom.blogspot.com

Natalie said...

Dear Kate, I'm so sorry, I will be praying for you and your family. Natalie xx

Barclay Kathryn said...

Oh honey I am just so sorry. I know exactly everything you are feeling and it sucks. I'll continue to pray and some day we'll both meet our little angels in heaven. : )

Steph T. said...

OH sweet Kate! I am so sorry. I will be praying for you and your family. I can't hug you in person so here is one thru blog world...((((hug))))). Thank you for being so open and sharing your story with us.
Love and prayers for you!
Steph

Catherine Anne said...

Im so very sorry for your loss. The pain is like nothing you ever knew. We have two children in the arms of Christ. Prayers to you. Time and prayer. This is the onlything that healed my heart. Well still today we are healing but the pain is not near as harsh. Once agian Im so very sorry. Be still and know that he is God

Jen said...

I am praying for your family right now. My heart is just broken for you.

April said...

Sweet Kate... I am left with no words.

Hugs and prayers

Ms. Sarah said...

so sorry for your loss. thoughts and prayers with you

Brooke said...

I'm so sorry, guys. Know that we love you and are here if you need anything. Kate, we are praying for quick physical healing for you.

He & Me + 3 said...

Oh Kate...I am so sorry. I have been there...I didn't know how to feel either. Knowing you are losing the baby...it doesn't seem real. I now you pain.
Hugs,
Mimi
Our babies are in heaven together.

Jenilee said...

I am so sorry. you have been on my mind all day... we just got home and I'm running late for somewhere else but I had to take the time to check on you before I leave. please know that I am praying. I'm so sorry to read your words. so thankful we serve a God who knows so much more than we do and we can trust His plan. After loosing Jason, those words are no longer cliche to me... they were words of truth that we all clung to in the days after His accident. I hope they help you as well.

Love, Jenilee
Isaiah 43:1-3

Kristin said...

Kate,

You've been in my thoughts all day and I've just been praying for the Lord to comfort you. I hope that you'll be able to feel all of our hugs being sent your way.

Love ya lots,
Kristin

Linda said...

Oh Kate I am so sad for you and Eric, and Molly! This is such a hard thing to go through. I will keep praying for you honey. ((hugs))

Love, Linda

Mom Putnam said...

Oh Kate and Eric, My heart goes out to you right now and I am sitting here trying to fight back the tears (which is impossible) because I know exactly what you are going through and reliving it all over again. Wow,after 20+ years one would think the feelong would be gone. Maybe the pain of your loss and thoughts of mine and thoughts of Carleigh is to much. But, i am thinking of you and praying for you which is the only thing I can do to help and hope you feel them coming your way. Love you and God will carry you through.

Kristen said...

My heart is breaking for you and your husband, Kate. I am so sorry. I love you and am praying for you both in this desperate time of need for God.

Sarah Robbins said...

Kate, I have been praying for you all day as God has brought you to mind. I pray God will comfort you and draw you closer to him as you and your husband draw near to His cross right now. . . How we long for Heaven is this fallen world.

September said...

Oh, Dear Kate -

I am so sorry. I am praying for you, and I know that you are clinging to His everlasting Arms of comfort.
Love to you dear friend!

amanda said...

praying! but the one 'hope' that helped me through my miscarriages is this: i never 'lost' my babies. god as them at home in heaven. and we have the hope of seeing them again. my heart breaks for your loss. i am so sorry!

Kim said...

we love you guys...

Kelly said...

I'm so sorry Kate! I;ll be praying for you so much. {{hugs}}

Verna said...

Kate dearest. May you feel the love of God and your freinds all around you. We are thinking of you and praying for you and your family.

Remember we do love you.
hugs
Verna

April said...

thinking of you again today

Somethings Gotta Give said...

Praying for you and your family. May the Lord be your strength during this difficult time. My heart aches for you all. Thank you for sharing your journey, I know it is ministering to so many women.

Amy @ Raising Arrows said...

I found you via The Hanes Family and just wanted to tell you how very sorry I am. I have lost 2 children to miscarriage and pregnancy has never been the same for me since. It is so very difficult when it is a future you have lost. God bless you as you mourn.
Amy

Michelle said...

Kate, I am so sorry to hear. I will continue to pray for you and Eric, I know how much you have wanted another child. my heart breaks for you!

Kari @ p.s. love.love. said...

Kate I'm sorry to hear this news and I don't really know what to say. I'm sure whatever I came up with, it wouldn't help right now. I pray for you and your family right now. This is not easy. You keep that photo of Molly with her Big Sister shirt before your eyes. Don't let go of the promise!!! Love to you today my friend.