Monday, May 31, 2010

Misc. Stuff For You All

Happy Memorial Day to you all!  Thank you to the troops past and present for fighting for our country and our freedom!!
I thought I would share some recent pictures with you all...


This isn't a great picture of me or the baby belly, but it was 10 0'clock at night when I took it.  I am awful at taking pictures of this kind of stuff!  When I was pregnant with Molly the only time you saw a "belly picture" was if I was taking a picture with someone else.  But I am trying to do better about documenting every step of the way.  I will probably start stealing Kelly's idea, and taking a picture with a piece of fruit or a veggie to show how big the baby is.  I thought that was so neat!!  I bought a peach to represent last week, but it went bad before I could take the picture, and I thought it might look a little weird to be smiling with a shriveled up piece of fruit. 

When it is not too hot here, Molly loves to play outside.  Well, she would play outside all day despite the temperature, me however, I am a wimp when it comes to the heat.  But this week we enjoyed some after dinner play time outside. 

*Don't your children play with sand toys out in the grass, too?  Ha!*

All of the painting is finished at our new house with the exception of the full bath on the main level.  We had to put a new bathtub and surround in, (surprise!) something we weren't expecting, but it needed to happen.  So our friend is just finishing up some drywall and then we can paint.  It probably won't get painted until after we move in, but I can live with that.  Everything else has paint on it, and is hopefully getting the finishing touches.  Today Eric is polishing the floors that he has worked so hard sanding.  I saw them after one coat, it takes 3, and they look so good!  I am so happy we chose to do hardwood.  I am also happy we didn't choose to stain then wood like we originally thought, the natural wood is a lot darker than we thought it would be. 

Eric has been working so hard on our house, and I am just so proud of him.  It's been hard to take a backseat and watch everything happen.  Which I know I am doing my part by hanging with Molly, and holding down the homefront, but still it's been hard knowing I haven't really done anything at the house.  I am going to clean it before we move in, that counts for something.

Well, now I am going to try and sort through all of Molly's toys.  I feel like I do this too often, but it needs done again!  Enjoy your holiday!

Friday, May 28, 2010

Happy Anniversary

Dear Eric,

Today we celebrate our 5 year wedding anniversary.  It's funny that I still remember that day and almost all of the little details about it.  I play it over and over again in my head.  I remember getting ready to walk down the aisle, arm in arm with my Dad, and seeing you at the front of the church. 

You captured my heart at the young age of 15 and I have never let go since.  I really fell for you in third grade, but you weren't interested.  You were worth the wait.

We have been through a lot together in the 10 1/2 years we have been a couple.  We have seen the worst and the best in each other.  We have shared in joys and grieved together for our losses.  I trust you with my feelings, words, and love.  I know you would never take that for granted and me- the same for you.  I love and respect you more each day, and I feel so unworthy to be called your wife. 

God has truly blessed me with your friendship and love, and I don't take that lightly.  I am striving to be the best wife God can teach and help me to be.  I love you with everything that I am, and I everything that I will ever become.  Thank you for encouraging me to go after my dreams and allowing me to always be myself.  Something that has never been hard to do around you. 

Happy Anniversary my love, my heart, my better half. 
~Mrs. Ferguson
*At the baseball game May 2010*

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

My Little Ladybug

I am remembering my little Molly girl 2 years ago in these pictures today.  I love looking at her big red cheeks, and her always open mouth.  Not a lot has changed :)




I sure hope this next one is as cute as his or her big sister! 

**Not to toot my own horn, but I am featured over at Leading and Loving It today.  I love all of the ladies over there, and it makes me giddy to know that I am featured today!**

Monday, May 24, 2010

We're Back...

We are back from our little get-away.  It was fun, relaxing, busy, and crazy all at one time!  Now it's back to reality which means packing and moving.  The plans for someone to move into our apartment in May fell through, which ended up being good for us, but now bad for us, because they can not move in until closer to July.  Which means we are stuck with this place for another month.  Which really over all is a good thing.  We are able to get more accomplished, and feel good about moving.  I think our plan is to move the first weekend in June, not positive on that. 

None the less, I still need to pack up our belongings.  I think that is the one thing I hate about moving, the packing!  And the actual moving part, but I am such a procrastinator when it comes to packing.  So I need to get motivated now!

This week is a catch up week, catch up on work, house chores, blogs, emails, etc.  Hope you all had a fantastic weekend, and are staying cool!  I was not prepared for this heat wave we are experiencing, it is over 90 here today!  Thank you Lord for air conditioning!  This pregnant lady might not make it through the summer, let alone until Nov!

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Getting Away...

Sorry I left you all hanging on Friday with our Great news!  We left for vacation on Sunday after church, and let me tell you...it is so nice to just get away!!

Eric surprised me with a trip to Cincinnati to celebrate our anniversary a little early.  It was so nice to spend time with my husband, and talk about stuff other than what cute things Molly did that day, and I can't believe she did that, what was she thinking would happen.  Well, we did talk about Miss Molly, but it was so nice to eat our meals in peace, take our time, and not have to share our food!  Aww...thanks to my wonderful MIL for watching her! 

Yesterday we went to the Brewers/Reds game at Great American Ball Park.  It was fun and rainy!  We sat in the rain for half of the game and the other half was really muggy, but it was fun.  We drank pop and ate a lot of peanuts!  I love baseball games, and seeing some of the crazy fans!  On Monday night we ate at The Montgomery Inn, yumm!!  They are known for their award winning ribs!  It was a favorite of ours while we lived there and we still love going back there.  We also at at Skyline...yumm again!!  We bummed around, shopped a little, visited with some friends, and overall just relaxed! 

The rest of the week we plan on relaxing, garage sale-ing (well me, not so much Eric), golf (Eric, not me!), and just visit with family and watch my dad get re-married on Sunday.  Eric is performing the wedding for them.  I got a new dress yesterday and I am actually really excited about it.  While in Cincinnati, I really bumped out!  Maybe it was all the food!  But now my belly is really round and hard.  With Molly, I was pudgy until about 5 months or so, then bumped.  But not with this one!  Which the doctor told me I had a slight disadvantage since my body was not back to normal after the miscarriage in January.  Everything was not back in its place is what he told me.  Not sure if that is a good thing of a bad thing, ha!  I am learning to love my new body, bump, pudge and all!  It's really hard being a woman and gaining weight.  Even though during pregnancy you are "allowed" to gain weight, it's still hard to see the numbers go up on the scale.  Anyone else out there feel this way, or is it my hormones? 

Needless to say I am enjoying being away from Milwaukee for a week.  Even though we have a ton of work to do at the house, packing, you name it, it's nice to take a break, set my default message on my email at work, and just enjoy my family!

Friday, May 14, 2010

A Friday SURPRISE!

We have been keeping something from you...

SURPRISE!!!!

We are very excited to announce that we will be expecting a new little baby due Nov. 28...which is 4 years to the day that I found out I was expecting Miss Molly!  

We feel overjoyed and so blessed to be expecting again after our miscarriage in January.  Sometimes it doesn't feel real, then I look down and see the bump and I know it's for sure.  We have had one ultra sound and the baby looks great, strong and healthy.  His or her little heartbeat has been ranging from 154 to 160.  Yesterday the doctor found the heartbeat right on the first try, he didn't even have to move the doppler around at all!  The sound of your baby's heartbeat never gets old!  

This never gets old either...
She really is happy, I just caught her in the middle of saying "cheese!"

Happy Weekend!!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Prodigal Son-Part 3

The story of the grace-filled father...
"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.  "But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet.  Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate.  For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate."  Luke 15:21-24 NIV

I think I have a harder time relating to the father than other character in this story.  He is kind of a hard one to crack.  I guess maybe because I am a woman, I want to know what he was thinking when he first saw his son running towards him.  I am sure he was excited, but did any emotions flood back to him, anything like anger, frustration, disappointment.  This part of the story is so simple yet so complicated.  To me it seems like the father was truly just filled with joy and so happy to have his son back home.  I did a paper on this passage in college and when I was doing research on it, I remember reading that back in Bible times people did not run.  Like this was a huge deal for the dad to get up and run.  Especially people with money, status, you name it, they weren't running anywhere.  They paid people to run, but not this guy, he did the running himself.

I haven't experienced a rebellious child or a child who has broken my heart, but I have seen firsthand the pain that results in those poor choices made by the child.  So it's really easy for me to sit back and tell the parents where they went wrong, or what they should do to the next time the child comes back around.  But who am I to judge or really give any sort of advice on this. 

All I can hope and pray is that I always react the way the father did in this parable.  Whether it be my child who ran away, or a friend, or a church member.  I would love to picture myself just running to them, and embracing them with reckless abandonment and with lots of love.  To forget about the past emotions and just love in the moment.

The father in this story is what I am striving to be like.  Someone who still follows the rules (yes!) but also someone who does it with a genuine heart, not looking to be paid back in full for it.  Also, someone who loves continuously, with no conditions, and no strings attached.  Especially in ministry, people unintentionally and sometimes intentionally hurt you or your family.  It's often hard to look the other way and not want to give them a piece of your mind.  But most of the time it's better to just shut-up and pray for them.  Something I am not always good at.  But I am trying to get better at.

So here is my encouragement to you all...run, run to someone who needs ran to, and love them, throw your arms around them and just love.
"But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found." Luke 15:32  

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

The Prodigal Son- Part 2

Today I am going to explore my life as the runaway son in the story...
"Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need." Luke 15:13-14 NIV

When I try and think of the words that would describe my spiritual life lately words like coasting, cashing in all my good graces, lazy, complacent, fake, phony, pathetic, ungrateful, and just plain sinful come to mind.  I didn't physically set off to a distant country but mentally and emotionally, I was there.  I was anywhere but here and anywhere but with God.  Sure, I still prayed occasionally, when I wanted/needed something, but nothing heartfelt, nothing I would be proud to do in front of God.  I really just ran on fumes.  I know some people who are involved in the ministry feel this way often, it's not unusual, but really, it should be.  It's never okay to neglect your walk with God or to forget about building your spiritual life up.

I had been running on fumes until I no longer could.  I finally had a breakdown or breakthrough, same thing either way you look at it.  I just realized that God is too good for me to be acting so badly.  I think I thought I was punishing God for making life unfair, and for doing exactly what the Bible says he will do, give and take away.  Well, I was sick of things being taken away all of my life, and I was in a sense rebelling against God.  Well, I really showed Him...not really since I am the one who had the breakdown.  I was only punishing myself, and doing myself harm, not any good.  I found myself in a spiritual famine and I truly became in need of God again.

"I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you.  I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.  So he got up and went to his father.  But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him." Luke  15:18-20 NIV

How I wish the last part of this verse was true in a physical sense for me.  I would love to imagine God getting up from his big chair and running to me, I would probably be crying my eyes out, not making any sense, but he would know what I was saying and he would wipe my tears away, and tell me evertything was going to be okay.  A true picture of a father.  What I can say is that when I finally repented for my sinful ways, and finally acknowledged I was living a life of a liar, I could still feel God's love all around me. 

There are times in life that we try and go our own way, we think we are doing it "the right way."  Well, more than likely if God is not involved, you are going the "right way."  As the great musicain Toby Mac says "you lose your way, you get back up again, it's never too late to get back up again..."  Friends, it is never too late to get back up again, God is always there waiting for you.  Run to him and he will run to you. 

Thursday-Prodigal Son Part 3-The Father

Monday, May 10, 2010

The Prodigal Son-Part 1

This weekend when I was driving the Lord just spoke right to my heart...it was one of those times you know it's the Lord because you think "where did that come from?!"  Once I cleared all of the jumbled thoughts in my head, I realized the Lord was using the story of the Prodigal Son and showing me how I have played every character in that story.  I haven't been able to get it off of my mind ever since, so I am going to try and make sense of it here.  This won't be anything too deep or super theological, because quite frankly, that's not me.  This is more about my journey I guess, more about where I am going, and how I am getting there. 

Today I am going to focus on the older brother in the story...
"The older brother stalked off in an angry sulk and refused to join in. His father came out and tried to talk to him, but he wouldn't listen. The son said, 'Look how many years I've stayed here serving you, never giving you one moment of grief, but have you ever thrown a party for me and my friends? Then this son of yours who has thrown away your money on whores shows up and you go all out with a feast!' Luke 15:28-30 Msg

This is how I feel a lot of the time.  I am a huge rule follower, and I am also a people pleaser, a deadly combination.  I have a servants heart, yet I want to be recognized for my good deeds.  So when I see people who in my judgmental eyes get something I selfishly don't think they deserve, I get mad.  I am like the older brother, I stomp off and moan.  This is really hard when someone has something that I want, and I am not talking about a car or clothes, I am talking like money, good fortune, a baby, etc.  I try to be happy in most cases, but sometimes under my breathe I ask God, "why them and not me?"  Then I go into my mantra about I try to be a good person, I pray, I serve others, I give of myself to my church, I do this, I do that, etc, etc.  Then one Sunday a couple months back, Mark (our Minister) said something to the effect of, "God doesn't owe you because you follow the rules."  There was more to it than that, but that part stuck out to me, and I remember sitting in the back of the auditorium, just had lost our baby, and crying.  I was crying because on one hand I felt like I was being punished for something and that's why our baby died and on the other hand I was mad at God because he took our baby after all I do for Him.

I truly played the older brother here...I was so selfish and so wrapped up in myself that I forgot to see the great things God was doing around me, and who was coming back that once had been lost, and I was not extending grace to all the poor pregnant ladies (all 20 of them!) at our church.  From that moment on I made a decision, I was still going to follow the rules, but I was going to do it because God calls me to do that, not because I am trying to earn points to cash in for a prize or a blessing.  Here is the important part that I forgot...
"His father said, 'Son, you don't understand. You're with me all the time, and everything that is mine is yours—but this is a wonderful time, and we had to celebrate. This brother of yours was dead, and he's alive! He was lost, and he's found!'" Luke 15:31-32 Msg

I know in the story this is the father talking to the son, but in my case this is God talking to me.  Now I am choosing to celebrate more and not take everything so seriously and to just be joyful.  This life is tough enough, who needs to feel angry, and like they got ripped off all of the time.  Not me, I have enough issues to deal with, like people who...just kidding :)

Tomorrow: Part 2- The Runaway 

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Ladies Day!

Happy Mother's Day or Ladies Day to you!  I think it is super important to remember all of the women out there who are not officially moms, whether it's their decision or not.  So I enjoy wishing people a Happy Mother's Day, but if you are a lady who is not a mom, Happy Ladies Day to you!!

At church tomorrow we are dedicating 18 kids!  Holy wow!  18?!  And I have to speak, yikes!  That is why I married a guy who likes to be up front, who loves speaking to a crowd.  Me-I will be in the back doing the dirty work, cleaning things, or making sure people have what they need.  Not tomorrow, I am front and center.  Which is going to be fun for some, putting 2 and 2 together...hardly anyone knows who I am, they will be shocked to know I am married to Eric.  They have heard my name numerous times, and everyone seems to know that blonde curly haired girl that shows up with me each week, but no one really knows me.  If you remember, could you say a little prayer for me...I hate this up front stuff, but I know it's important to show support to all of the families up there. 

My mom left this morning, boo!  We had a great time while she was here, Molly was super tired yesterday, she slept for almost 4 hours!  Poor kid, us old ladies wore her out!  My dad is coming this week to help us paint our house, yea!  His help will be so appreciated, and I think Eric might have wanted to cry when I told him my dad would be here Wed-Sunday.  We have been uncovering a lot of things we had no clue were there, like mold in the bathroom under the wallpaper, fun stuff like that you know.  But it's all been okay, we feel so grateful to call our little humble home ours.  It's all ours, mold and all.  We also have had so much help and support from wonderful friends here.  It's just been awesome.

I hope you all have a wonderful day tomorrow and hopefully get some quiet time, or whatever you need/deserve on this special day!!  I want a nap and a long walk.  But we will see how the day unfolds!  Blessings and happiness to all you ladies!

Thursday, May 6, 2010

What we have been up to...

Hello!  This week has been a whirlwind of fun!  My Mom flew in on Monday and we have been having fun ever since!  Everyday has been filled from top to bottom!  On Tuesday my Mom took Molly to the zoo for a day of adventure.  Eric and I sadly had to work, but I think Molly enjoyed having her Grandma all to herself. 

Yesterday my Mom, Molly, and I went to the botanical gardens around here.  We were trying to find this one park, but stumbled upon the gardens instead.  It was fun to walk around and look at all of the different horticulture Wisconsin has to offer. 




I took over 100 pictures, you are welcome for me sparing you!  Then today we went and toured a pre-school that I would LOVE Molly to go to next year.  It's through the parks department and it's at the middle school in our new town.  Which we can walk to!  Not that I am walking there in the winter months when it is bitter cold, but when it's nice, I will for sure walk there with Molly.  The teachers were so nice and they come highly recommended from other pre-schools in the area!  So I think, if I can talk Eric into it, hopefully tomorrow we will be signing her up.  There are only 16 spots a year, so we need to move quickly.

Eric has been at the house very waking moment he has when he is not in a meeting or at work.  Today he is starting on refinishing the hardwood floors and our friend who is a contractor is over there with Eric right now helping out.  Thank you Jesus for friends with tools!!  I know Eric has been so excited and anxious to start on making everything the way we want it, and I am so thankful for him and his motivation!

My Mom and I also went and walked around the cute little historic area in our new town today too.  We had a couple of minutes before our tour of the school, so we went into some really sweet shops.  Anyone out there like Taste of Home cookbooks or the magazine?  Well, the outlet is located right here!  So I picked up some recipe books for 99 cents!  I know my MIL will be there all of the time when she comes to visit.  We also went into this fun candy shop, it was expensive, but cute!  There are so many more shops that I want to venture into, just without Molly!  Unless she is in her stroller, which she is now protesting against, it's like a bull in a china shop! 

Tomorrow we have some errands to run and just enjoy our last day together.  My Mom flies back on Saturday morning.  And...tomorrow is the premier of Friday Night Lights on NBC!!  I am beyond excited!  I LOVE that show!  So we will be watching that.  Although my Mom has already seen all of them since she has Direct TV and it's on there during the regular season and now NBC gets it.  Needless to say, I am pumped!

Saturday, May 1, 2010

Welcome Home!

Welcome to our new home!!

Yesterday we closed on our new house!  It feels so good to say our house!  I still can not believe we own a home, we literally own a home.  We have so much we want to do, so much in fact after we were handed the keys to the house we drove right over and ripped the carpet up in the living room because it was killing us to know what was under there...nice hardwood floors!  Yea!  Then we started ripping bits and pieces of wallpaper off, then some more carpet, some more wallpaper, and then looking around outside to see what we could do out there.  We totally were not dressed to do any type of home improvement work, but we were excited.  So now we have 15 more little projects to add to our big projects, since we didn't finish any of our adventures yesterday and actually we just made a big mess!  
I know it is killing Eric to have to be in a conference today and not over there working.  But I am sure he will have his fill of work over there!  


Thank you all for your thoughts, prayers, and encouraging words!  I can't wait to show you some of our finished projects around the house.  Have a great weekend!!