Saturday, January 22, 2011

Bath Time Pics and Some Tough Choices

Thank you all for saying a prayer for Lucy and her poor little tummy.  We took her to the doctor on Thursday to see what else we can do for her.  The culprit seems to be the anti-biotic I am on to treat my kidney infection. It is really effecting my milk, which is effecting Lucy.  The medicine makes me feel great, but it leaves Lucy feeling awful.  So the doctor wrote a prescription for her reflux, and told me not to nurse until I am completely finished with my medicine. 

Since our doctor's appointment I have had a million thoughts going through my mind.  I pumped a ton while my mom was here, but I was also on my medicine, none of that milk is good since it has the anti-biotic running through it.  Argh!  Let me just say for the record I strongly dislike pumping.  I am not a pro like my cousin, Holly.  I only do it because I have to, and I complain the whole time.  I am a big baby, I know.  At least I have a decent pump and I can do both sides pretty quick.  But still, I really don't like pumping.  So to know all that milk has to be thrown away makes me sick.  Literally, I feel sick trashing it all.  So Lucy has been taking formula since Thursday afternoon, and giving her the first bottle was awful.  She has taken a bottle many of times before, all breast milk, and she did great.  But the formula on Thursday was dreadful.  I cried, she cried, it was terrible.  Then she finally realized that was all she was getting and she ate.  Ever since then she takes the bottle of formula like a pro, and is so content. 

But I am still making milk!  So I have to pump, but I have to dump all that milk too!  As my one friend calls it...liquid gold.  So I pump and then dump all my liquid gold down the drain, sickening I tell ya!  I am trying not to pump too much so I don't make too much, but I also need to pump enough so I don't shorten my supply.  But the whole getting up in the middle of the night to feed Lucy a bottle and pump after that, that is for the birds!  I told ya I complain about it! 

Don't get me wrong, I like nursing, I like the fact that it is good for Lucy, but I am not a hard core nurser.  My goal with both my girls was to nurse for 4 months.  Once they start food I am pretty much done.  But that's just me.  Plus, with both my girls being big babies....oh the doctor's office we found out that 7 week old Lucy weighs 14lbs 4.5oz!!  So with both of my girls being bigger, I find it uncomfortable to nurse, and with Molly I could never keep her full enough, so we still had to do formula around 4 months, on top of nursing, on top of her eating food.  Yea, big kids live here :)

So I slowly started weaning Molly around 4 months, and by 6 months she was totally done with it.  Actually a little bit before that.  Like I said, she didn't get enough from me, so she lost interest when she realized she could it from the bottle and get full.  Now, back to Lucy...She is doing so well on the formula...hardly any gas, I can count on one hand how many times she has spit up.  I am sure some of it is due to her meds, and some of it because the formula is geared to help with spitting up.  So in a couple of days when I am finished with my meds I have to decide to go back to nursing, do a combo of nursing and formula, or to just do formula.  I want to do what is 100% best for Lucy and her sensitive tummy.  I am so confused and conflicted at the same time! 

I will say selfishly it has been nice to drink milk, have tomato sauce, eat broccoli, and not worry about hurting Lucy.  I had to cut all that stuff out at the beginning when she started spitting up.  So now even with pumping, I have to dump it all anyways, so it really is nice to eat whatever I want.  I know, that sounds really selfish, but it's true.  And to debunk the myth at least for my, Lucy does not sleep through the night with formula, she still gets up at least 2 times, sometimes 3!  She is like her momma, she likes to eat!

Now onto some cute bath time pics...

Have a great weekend and Go Steelers!!


Kristin said...

How adorable!!! I am loving the rolls on her legs. She is too cute!!

Praying for you to be able to decide on the milk/formula issue. I would just say that if you decide to quit breastfeeding, do not feel guilty!! She is going to be just fine, whether she does formula or not. So, just trust your Mommy instincts. :)

Jennifer {Studio JRU} said...

I am happy to hear you found out what her tummy trouble was and that she is feeling better now! Oh my goodness she is a cutie!! Love the photos!

Linda said...

I am so glad they figured out the problem, and that your little sweetie is doing better. (Glad you are feeling better too)

Try not to stress too much with the decisions...but pray about it and do what you feel is best. I think the Lord will give you peace.

Love, Linda

{:miss v:} said...

I agree with Kristin. Whatever you decide will be the best for her. I stopped nursing Evan at three weeks old because I just had to stop. He's doing wonderfully!

Lyndsay said...

Wow...look at those chucky legs! Love it! I wish my kids were that good of eaters. My 4 year old just hit 30lbs! All my kids are usually 17lbs at a year old, but that's just how they are.

I totally understand your frustration towards having to toss your liquid gold....our bodies work hard to make that stuff. It's such a loss to toss it! I've nursed all 3 of my kids...still am nursing my 11 month old. I always aim to nurse for a year, but each person it different. I think it's most important to get them the colostrum and then everything else is the icing on the cake. Do what works best for you and Lucy. Maybe bottles during the day and nursing during the night. Hope you get better soon!

Oh and I'm from WA so I'll have to forgot that comment about the Steelers! ;) ;)

Unknown said...

That is such a bummer that you have to dump all your milk and stash! Boo! I know that would make me upset. I am glad that Lucy is feeling better.

Pumping isn't for for me either but I do it. What helps me is having something to do while pumping, whether watching tv, reading a book, or FBing on my phone. It makes the time pass much quicker! ;)

Julie said...

I think people put too much pressure on breastfeeding. I think it's great if the mom & baby want to do it. You need to do what's best for both of you. If she's doing better on formula and you're happier too...then just do that. Try not to stress over it. Praying for you!

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