So I just have to say that I think of myself as a little hypocritical when I blogged last week about blogging more and so on...then it's like a week before I even log back on! Ha! Last Wednesday morning at about 3:45am we loaded up the car to go back to Ohio to visit family. As always it was a quick and busy trip. We didn't even get to see half the people we would have liked to seen, but that's just how it goes. The girls did great going, we didn't even have to stop once, although I did climb in the back seat and give Lucy a bottle. Which worked out great! The way back was fine...Molly was just really bored. We thought she would sleep more than she did, but oh well. We made it home. Now it's back to real life and a busy season of ministry. We have so much coming up this Spring that I feel a tad bit overwhelmed looking at our calendars, but we also have a lot of exciting things going on, too.
Like I said last week, one thing I noticed when reading through old posts is that I wrote about things that I wanted Molly to know about me, her daddy, and our family, and now I want Lucy to know the same things. I want them to see the happy times, the hard times, and the boring times. I want them to know that I as their momma have struggles and demons of my own and that with God's help, I will overcome them. Just like 90% of America I struggle with my weight and body image. I used to be athletic and now I am just flabby. I am learning that two kids will do that to you, ha! Really, eating crap and not exercising will do that to you. A couple months ago I bought "Made to Crave" and I know most of you have read it, or are reading it right now. I am in the middle of it, and let me just say I LOVE IT! I feel like I am talking with a girlfriend when I am reading it. Things in this book have stuck with me and have really changed my perspective on things. I was telling a friend the other day that when I was at the grocery I went to grab some not so healthy snacks and then thought about the book and some of the verses Lysa uses to encourage you, and I put them back and have not craved them since.
I have fallen away from exercising regularly, and I keep telling myself when it gets warm out I will run again, when this happens I will do this, or next Monday I will start. I am sure you all can relate. Who am I kidding?! When it gets warm out I will probably say it's too hot to run and I will sit at home. But enough is enough. Today starts a new a day, a new leaf to turn over, insert your own catchy phrase here...today I am starting to eat healthy because I want to, and because I want my girls to know what is good for you, and not what is just fast and easy. Eric and I do eat pretty good at meals, and that's all due to him. He is a stickler for healthy stuff at meals, it's the after meal stuff like snacks that just kills me! I am a very snacky person, and I would graze all day if I could. I guess I do graze all day while I am at home. And I have noticed Molly is starting this awful habit, too.
So here is where I am at...I want to lose some weight, who doesn't, but truly I want to be healthy, physically, spiritually, emotionally, and mentally. So I need to rid myself of the junk (food, bad attitude, etc) that is taking over my life right now. I need a cleansing in all senses of the word. I want my girls to know that it's not just about the number on the scale, but total overall health that matters. We were made in God's image, and I am sure that image did not include potato chips and gossip.
So here I am today, eating healthier, having a better attitude and trying to grow closer to God. Each day I know will be a struggle, but I also know there will be very rewarding times on this never ending journey.