I will admit, six weeks into this I find it just as hard as week one. Some things are "easier" or less tempting, but others are just as tempting, or I find myself saying, "it's okay, I have learned my lesson, I can eat it." Which is not really true or helpful! I think it might take me the rest of my life to actually get that this journey is literally a daily effort in saying no, and telling myself I was made for more than this. Literally, each and every day. There are days I will fail, there are days I have failed, but the days I tell myself no, and mean it, make it all worth it. Someone asked me if I was ever going to indulge again...I had passed down a treat at a function that normally I would have eaten, and I got to thinking about that. Right now I need to pass it down, maybe some day when I know I can eat one and just one, I will treat myself, not indulge myself, but just treat myself. That time hasn't really come yet. I certainly eat sweet treats, my latest is Jello Chocolate Pudding for only 60 calories, yum...but in order to have that I make sure I was obedient all day long and didn't give in to any unhealthy cravings.
This past week and a half or so have been difficult womanly speaking...not to go into too many details since my dad reads this, but a lot of things have been out of my control and all in Mother's Nature's control...which warranted a call to the doctor and I am going in next week. So with that said, when I got on the scale this morning I was ready for anything...
Starting Weight: 156 lbs
Week 6: 147 lbs
A loss of 1.5 lbs from last week
I will take that. I was starting to get worried about plateauing, like most people do when they have been on a diet for so long. I truly think it is by the grace of God that I have come this far, because let me tell you, I at one point was totally okay with buying some bigger clothes and hiding those 156lbs...but thank the Lord and the book "Made to Crave", I am no longer okay with that. And like Kelly said today in her post, it's not that you should be defined by the number on the scale, but by your obedience to God and those unhealthy cravings. I am not defined by 147, it feels good to see that, but I truly feel best knowing I didn't give in to unhealthy choices last week, and that I was able to seek God on my journey.
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