Monday, April 25, 2011

Week 7 thoughts...

Let me just start with my "Mother of the Year" award please...I was super pumped about the girls wearing matching Easter dresses this year, and matching hair bows thanks to Sarah!  I also was excited because Eric's parents came to visit, and since Sundays are the most hectic, stressful days for me...trying to get 2 kids around to leave extra early, set all the kids stuff up at church, make sure "my area" is set to go, and also trying to be mom...lets just say I need a shower when I am done, it's not even 8am yet!  Anyways...so with extra help on Sunday, Easter Sunday none the less, I was pumped.  Eric and I left early, the in-laws and the girls were coming second service, life was good.  It was all good until we had to stay later at church to tear everything down, which was fine, but by the time we got home Lucy was sleeping and Molly was wearing Lord knows what!  I was so sweaty from one of the most hectic mornings at church that I have ever had, and Eric was already changed to go work in the yard.  Needless to we have zero pictures from our coordinating Easter dress wear!  I am putting the girls back in their dresses this week and taking pictures.  I am so bummed.  Which I know in reality it's not that earth shattering, but I am the type A person that has a plan and when the plan does not happen, it is earth shattering for me.  So that's my moment, more like my rant!


Now onto this week, the beginning of week 7...I will just start off with this part...
{Weigh In}
Starting Weight: 156 lbs
Week 7: 146.5 lbs
I was really hoping to hit that 10 pound mark, but nope, not today.  Which is fine considering everything we ate this weekend with my in-laws!  I actually was pretty good, we all were.  My FIL has probably lost almost 40 pounds since January, so he doesn't want to throw all his hard work away, either.  So we didn't do awful, but there were some cookies and No Pudge Brownies eaten this weekend.  Have you ever heard of No Pudge Brownies?  They are supposed to be healthier for you, they have no oil in them, and you add yogurt.  They were good, everything we ate was good!  I had McDonald's this weekend for the first time since starting this journey.  I was so nervous to eat there.  We were at the mall Saturday and it was lunch time, well really nap time, so we wanted to get Molly something to eat and then go home for her to nap.  So we all decided to just eat at the food court.  Molly wanted Mc D's, and I was hungry but nothing sounded good, so I just went there with her.  I got a grilled chicken sandwich.  It was good, but I felt just awful after eating it.  I wasn't sick with like food poisoning or anything but with guilt.  Like, almost depressing guilt.  Which now I think if I knew I was going to feel that way I would have totally gone all out and gotten a big juicy cheeseburger or something.  Grilled chicken wasn't the worst thing to eat, good grief.  If you haven't read Kelly's post yet today I encourage you to go do so.  She talked about everything I felt this weekend.  Where is the balance when you fall off the wagon?  Where is the grace?  I think I have a harder time with cheating a little since I am not on a super strict diet, I haven't taken out sugar or carbs like Lysa, so I think it's harder for some reason to just try and eat healthier, knowing you can eat it all.  I am a very black/white person, no gray.  But there is a lot of gray here on this journey, and needing a lot of grace.  But I know it's very easy for me to swing back into old habits in my black or white mentality.  So it's mentally been tough for me lately.  

I know I told y'all that we did not renew our gym membership this year due to saving money and now our campaign at church.  But the general manager goes to The Ridge and told Eric he could give a us a good deal, and lets say he really did.  So we now have a 6 month membership at the gym to start out with.  Which in 6 months nothing is really going to change for us financially, unless we start playing the lottery, and happen to win, what do you think the odds are?  Ha!  I wish the membership started in Sept. when it's getting cold out, so we could go in the winter, but I will take what we have.  So today I am attempting to go back to the gym, and can I tell y'all I am petrified!  Like worst than the first day of school nerves you get, like terrified!  I am so not a gym person, I go in, do my thing and get out.  I am so intimidated!  And with the girls I will go in the morning, which I love their child care, so that's a plus, but it's filled with other women who have had 5 kids and look like they have a body of a 14 year old girl.  I am the one in the sweats and big shirt, ha!  Not the sports bra and spandex, I would scare small children wearing that!  So, here's to some more regimented exercise because doing it at home, is not as easy as I tried to convince myself it would be.  I don't have the discipline to do it, I just don't.  Hopefully this helps with balancing out the eating healthier!   

 

8 comments:

Courtney said...

You're doing great! You weigh less than I do! I've gotta get back on track. Vacation this week and no teaching zumba really put a kink in things! Yeesh. Congrats on keeping it up.

Amanda said...

LOL about the gym...girl, you go in there with confidence! Remember that most of the people in there are thinking about themselves and watching their minutes and calories and how many pounds they are lifting! Proud of you for taking that step!

Kelly @ Sufficient Grace Ministries said...

The grilled chicken was a good choice...great job not overindulging in some greasy fried stuff!

We have to kick the guilt with some grace and keep on keepin' on sister. Here's to getting back on the skinny jean wagon! We can do this!!

Great job going to the gym, too. I would be intimidated too. (Just remember, you are a beautiful daughter of the king.) And...so with you on the scaring small children if I wore spandex...ha!

Love to you! We are SO made for more than this!

Jennifer @ Studio JRU said...

Sounds like you are doing a great job! I just started Lysa's book... so good! Does she say what kind of eating plan she used? I know she mentioned low/no sugar, but didn't know if that was the main change she made.

Kristin said...

I love that the Lord provided a way for you to get a gym membership again :) And it's okay that you didn't get any photos of the girls....they'll still look just as precious this week as they did on Sunday! :)

Holly said...

I totally forgot to take any Easter pics of the girls. Oh well! For going to McD's you prolly made one of the healthier choices.

Becca said...

I can't wait to see the girls in their dresses! I know they are going to be just precious!

You are doing such a great job losing the weight! You are sooooooo close to that 10lb mark!

Katie E said...

I was so excited about having the whole family dressed for Easter, and we too took no pictures. The girls were fried by the end of church. Oh well. I'm hoping to get all of us dressed back up for bro's graduation this weekend and take pictures then. Great job on the weight loss. I was doing really well then slacked majorly!