Yesterday Eric was speaking at church and I was able to sneak in the back once things in the kids area got settled and I was finished telling the Bible story to the Pre-schoolers. I try not to be one of those people that walk in late and try and find a seat, I just stay towards the back and listen. Sometimes I can not even see the person I stage, so I just soak it all in with my ears. Yesterday I could see Eric, see his passion for God and for His people when he was up on stage. It never gets old listening to Eric preach, and I still get butterflies in my stomach when he goes on. I am constantly praying for God to speak through him and for people to pay attention.
After the first service someone came up to me and said "I was watching you while Eric was speaking and I could see the love you have for him in your eyes. I don't go looking for that you know, but I know it when I see it." At first I was like "you were watching me?!'' Hopefully I didn't do anything embarrassing or adjust anything I shouldn't in public, ahem. So after the weirdness went away a little bit, I really thought about what this man said to me. And it really challenged me.
I am the first to admit I do not always longing gaze at Eric...sometimes I have annoyance in my eyes, or just pure frustration in my eyes when I look at him. I am not always perfect at loving Eric, or always speaking great things of him in public. I never speak harshly of him, but I do joke and make fun, maybe a little too much at times.
So here is my challenge to you, and to me...what do your eyes say about your husband? If people saw you looking at your husband what would they say your eyes are like? Do they show love, compassion, affection? Or annoyance, frustration, and irritation?
It's a pretty sobering thought because you never know who is looking at you...