Friday, February 10, 2012

Humbled by the snow

Our forecast today was to get a little dusting, this picture represents this morning around 10am...well now, late afternoon we have a couple inches!  For some reason this morning I decided to go running right when the snow started.  I have kind of been in a funk lately.  I have been snapping at people I don't normally snap at, and just feel down.  It's like I know it's happening but I can't stop it.  Especially when I am saying something not so kind or loving, it's like as the words are leaving my mouth, my brain and heart are like "WHAT?!  DON"T SAY THAT?!"  But it's too late, it has already left me.  Ever have days like that? 

Anyways, back to the snow...I love the snow, I really don't love bitter cold, but snow I can handle.  Leaving my house today it was so quiet.  The outdoors was so extremely peaceful, nothing seemed out of place, everything flowed.  I was so scared to move, or breathe, I didn't want to disrupt the peacefulness I was feeling.  I told God at the beginning of the run, please let me hear, let me see, let me feel the things you need to say to me.  I turned on my KLove Iphone app and ran.  I heard songs that spoke about peace, joy, being the lights of the world, and how Jesus will carry you.  Yea, I needed ALL of that! 

I just felt humbled by all the snow falling around me, and also falling into my eyes and eyelashes!  Not to sound cheesy and this is...but I really felt like God's love and joy was showering me as I was running.  Like a cleanse.  I needed that, too.  I need to no matter what always choose joy.  Choose to speak love when all I want to do is yell, choose to show love when all I want to do is be alone and isolated.  It's a tough choice, friends.  Choosing joy is hard. 

Yet you feel so peaceful when you do.  By choosing joy you are not saying everything is perfect, or that you are fine when you are not, you are saying I can't do it on my own.  You can't be joyful without Jesus, you just can't.  So here's to choosing joy, here's to choosing Jesus to help you feel and show love, His love.  Here's to God's love and peace cleansing you like a beautiful snowfall. 

5 comments:

Julie said...

I believe in choosing joy too. I completely agree. So glad that getting out in nature helped. I find that a few minutes outside in nature helps refresh your soul. Really getting to enjoy the beauty that God has created...

Jenilee said...

precious post! I love it!

Kelly said...

Such a good post! Choosing joy is definitely not easy sometimes, but so worth it!!

Holly said...

after a snowfall it really is peaceful

Kelly @ Sufficient Grace Ministries said...

Thank you, thank you, thank you for this.