It's quiet around here again. Part of that is on purpose and the other part is because I am too busy reflecting. I am trying to take each day as it comes, and truly be thankful for what God has blessed me with. I am not perfect, oh, not perfect by any means, but I am a lot more aware. I see the little things that busy people can pass right by.
Molly going to kindergarten this year has really thrown me for a loop on every front. I don't regret sending her, she is doing awesome, and I really have no reason to worry. But I often myself having anxiety over the little things, I get worried about things or people that Molly doesn't even pay attention to. So yea, it's been a rough start to the school year for this momma. Truthfully the only thing I can do is pray, and pray some more. But friends, this is hard for me. I am the enabler, the fixer, I am the mom.
Being able to spend more time with Lucy has truly helped me become more reflective. We take a lot of walks, we explore, we pick flowers, play in the leaves, watch the birds, we are like two little playmates. Watching Lucy see something for the first time brings me so much joy. Who can resist a chubby cheek little kid saying "wow, momma!"
So lately I find myself trying to be more thankful then ever. I am trying to just reflect, I am trying the Ann Voskamp approach and counting my blessings, one at a time. You know this is the first year I have intentionally watched the flowers and trees this Spring come to life, and now that it's Fall, I am watching them all wither. What a beautiful concept and something truly amazing that only God could do. Then next Spring the dead will come alive again, wow.
In my season of reflection I also need to document what I am seeing, what I am thankful for, and what God is teaching me. I will, I absolutely will, just after the last leaf falls.