Tuesday, December 11, 2012
The Face of Grace
Molly exudes grace from her core. I am not sure she knows a working definition of grace or if she realizes what she does is grace-filled. Today I had one of those wonderful mom moments of yelling and screaming, you know one of those. I am pretty sure my last words to Molly this morning were "are you kidding me, you can only find one glove?!" If I died today she would remember me by my dramatic and emotional moment this morning. Again, not sure where Molly gets it from. Then of course after I dropped her off at school, which was her running the whole way ahead of because I might have also yelled out the door, "Run, we are going to be late!", I was walking home and felt really convicted. Thanks to Lysa TerKeurst I know a bad moment does not make a bad mom, but I still felt crappy. I don't want to be that lunatic mom that screams and hollers at her kids. But I am also human and have bad days. When I get stressed, tired, or overwhelmed it's not real pretty here. Can you relate?
But not Molly, sure she has her moments, more often than not lately, but mostly she is such a forgiving kid, and she always extends grace, even when this mom doesn't deserve it. Today when I pick Molly up from school and get her home I will be asking for forgiveness for the way I acted and treated her this morning. I am sure she will barely remember, and she will say "it's okay mom" and give me a big hug.
Grace is a hard lesson to learn and practice. I used to think it wasn't, but in the past couple of months the Lord has laid on my heart what grace truly is. It's not just something you give other people, it's something you give yourself, daily, hourly, sometimes moment by moment. Our series at church right now is all about grace, and the new study I just started is all about grace. Think God is trying to teach me something?!
Here are some quotes from Jennie Allen's study book based on her Bible Study called "Stuck"
"When we soberly view ourselves and our sin, we see our need and call out for God."
"Obedience turns into a response to the love of our God rather than a duty to perform for Him."
"The more we experience forgiveness, the more we forgive."
"I believe in Christ and know that my sin has been forgiven, but I also stand here holding arms full of it."
"We will fight sin until we're in heaven, but my hope is your perspective will radically shift, and as God is lifted in your life, a thousand problems will get smaller."
"In our brokenness we find our God."
I could basically quote the whole book, it is that good.
So right now I am stuck, stuck in this pit of doing wrong, moving past, and repeating the cycle, can you still relate? So here's to a new journey, a new adventure about discovering true forgiveness and experiencing and living in absolute grace.